No really, how ARE you? Are you doing well or are you just surviving? There is so much happening in the world around us every day, it is hard to keep up at times. The social status that many of us are in can be classified as survival mode. Let us not mistake things, I’m not saying my life was or has been perfect at any point, but right now it seems especially bumpy. Let’s talk about it.
Insomnia and Coma
I cannot tell you the last time I’ve had a night of uninterrupted, resting, recuperative SLEEP! I have a few supplements that I take like Melatonin, ZzzQuil, and even a prescription sleep aid, but sometimes I feel bad taking them on “school nights” because I know I’m not really interested in going straight to sleep and staying there. My mind is awake and running full speed regarding my daily review and my tomorrow preparation. Therein lies the problem. Seems easy enough to solve right? Not so much.
Gut Health (or Not)
I do not think my stomach has been happy in MONTHS. You know what is? My mouth, if even for a moment. I need to do better, but who is interested in that right now. I was watching this lady’s video online and I was reminded of these probiotic digestive enzyme dietary supplements that all the chicks over 40 have been taking. So, I ordered some from Amazon, and started taking them. What can I say… I can say that they are definitely enzyme-ing all up in my stomach. My bathroom has been tried and tested over the past couple of weeks. I thank GOD for His daily renewal of mercies because woo… Let us not remain in that space too long. What is the positive of that supplement? I think I might be seeing a little reduction in my stomach circumference! That is something I cannot say I have seen in a while. Overall, I am going to keep taking them because I know the relationship between me and butterscotch krimpets is FAR from over. I said what I said.
Love and Grief
I will not lie… I am finding my way back to my first love. Since experiencing the loss of my mother in 2020, I have been in the fight of my life, FOR my life. Like… People do not know grief until they are GRIEVING. I thought I understood pain before losing her but my GOD I had no idea pain could hurt like this. She was more than my mother; she was also my lifeline to a higher power that I have loved and revered my entire life. When she transitioned, my lifeline went dead. My love went dead. My mind became numb to people’s attempts to comfort me. I longed for death believing it would give her back to me. Ugh… That is a whole other blog post… We’ll talk about that later.
Soul Searching
Anyhoo… I am on a journey of reconnecting to that power I spoke of. Yes, that power is Jesus Christ. I thought I knew SO much about being a believer and being a Christian and I really do not. A lot of people do not. This is not a blog about whether you believe or not, or whether you agree or not. I am just telling you that I thought I knew what it was to be a Christian and I did not. Not just that, the people I have teaching and leading me are NOTHING like I remember from my childhood. I have never felt more love, honesty, patience, and support in my LIFE as it relates to denominational organizations. It has been great, and I am ready for this chapter.
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Smooches.
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